18 already? Wow. Time flies REALLY fast, doesn't it? It's as if it was only yesterday when you were but that timid little 6-year old girl of your first grade class. You were always the quiet one. Yes, people have probably already misjudged you for that, forming conclusions on you being mean and snobbish, oh and especially when you don't smile when people wave at you. Guess you took your glasses off again, huh?
I know you've been through a lot all these years, and it was just last year that you were finally able to simply breathe in and relax, to accept whatever is going on, and to just move forward. The past years haven't always been rainbows, and sunshine, and skittles-pooping unicorns. In fact, I don't think you've ever had a perfect, spotless day in your entire life. And that is okay. Because yes, it is okay to not be okay. But honestly, your ability to just take a deep breath and smile and keep reassuring yourself that "everything's gonna be alright" — even when the whole world tells you it's not -- is nothing short of inspiring.
Those times you felt hurt? That tight, constricting feeling in your chest? Oh, that's because you cared. Maybe a little too much, but you cared nonetheless. I'm not saying you shouldn't care anymore, maybe you should just be a little more careful next time. You got through all of that though. And you will continue to. There may be times when you just won't understand why things are happening, or why you have to go through painful days, but trust me, they make you better than who you think you are as a person. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, right?
Always be kind to everyone. To the strangers you pass by everyday, to your-nonstop noise-bearing neighbors, to your family, to your friends. Kindness doesn't cost you anything and even when you don't receive it back, keep giving. It puts a smile on Jesus' face. Who wouldn't want that? Another thing, now that you're eighteen, I know that you're starting to feel the pressure of 'adulting', but even when you don't have it all figured out, that doesn't make you less human than you are. Remember that good things take time, and eventually, you will just look back at yourself, and smile.
You're smart, you're brave,you're strong. Even when everything screams at you and tells you otherwise. I believe in you, and I know you can do this. So keep pushing through girl, that finish line's waiting for you.