It I were to name one area in my life that I would like to improve, it would most likely be my social life. You may or may not know this yet, but I actually (sometimes) feel awkward around people. You see, whenever I participate in events where the people would be split into smaller groups for further discussion — especially groups with a number of people less than ten — I suddenly lose all sense of how to act or where to place myself!
"If only I was like my Dad, if only I had the confidence he had", I think to myself. So darn frustrating! Why can't I be like my Dad who can always have easy conversations with anyone? Even with total strangers! He's super confident, and here I am, in a far end corner, wondering how to approach those people seated around a table, clearly having fun, Things such as "Should I approach them?", "Where do I start?", "What should I say?" immediately come to my mind.
Situations like this, however, don't always apply to every aspect of my social life, though. Of course when I'm with my close friends or relatives, I'm naturally not awkward. But sometimes, when a close friend and I separate, and see each other again after a long time, it gets awkward, doesn't it? Years before, I was the super shy girl in my class. I rarely talked to anyone but my two best friends. However, as I grew older, I also got more confident with myself, and thankfull, also make friends.
I still lack social skills, and I still struggle on how to keep conversations alive and moving, but I think I'm okay. For now. So yea, I hope my social life will improve this year, and that in the future, I would be able to look back and feel proud about myself.
Have a great day today peeps, and Eid Mubarak! x