Seventeen years have passed in my life and a lot of things, good and bad, have happened. There were moments when I felt so blissful and completely satisfied - it's like I wanted to stop time. There also were days when I didn't feel like going through. There were people who came and left just as fast, there were people who left a lasting impression of themselves that I don't think I'll ever forget. There were those people who just seemed to carve a place where they perfectly fit into, right inside my heart, and there were just those few people who I wish I had never met. Sad but true for all of us, right?
Travelling back a few years ago, I realized that there were a lot of things that I missed, and that some of them didn't really matter at all. When I was about four years old, my mom made me a pillow out of a stocking filled with different sorts of fabric. I loved it, and I had it with me every night, while I slept. I pretty much got attached to the pillow that when it was gone one day (I don't know how it was gone, perhaps my mom threw it away because it was too old to use), I felt a sense of separation-anxiety. I almost couldn't sleep every night, now that I don't have that pillow. I missed it.
A few years forward, my younger sister got a play cooking set as a present for her eight birthday (I think). It basically consisted of plates, cups, a fork, spoon and a knife. It also had a teacup, milk and some fake bread. My sister and I always played with it, and loved it. One day, our innocent tea party turned into something else, I don't remember, but we kind of just started throwing the utensils as high as we can around the room. One of us was holding the knife, aimed it so high, and it ended up falling behind a tall gray cabinet. Oopsie. We laughed it off. The next days, tea party didn't feel the same at all. No more knife to spread butter over the bread! We missed it.
These are a couple of examples of things that weren't really worth missing, right? Now, here's the real thing: I miss going to school. I miss having classmates, I miss all the fun that I used to have during recess, I miss being told off by a teacher(kidding!) and I miss getting awards for every achievement that I make. Yeah, I still study now, but it's all by myself. Some of you might think that I'm such an ungrateful brat, and that I should be thankful that I don't have to go through the eight hours of torture you call school. But you know what? You're lucky. And you should be thankful. You get to study with someone teaching you, and work in a normal-paced schedule. You get projects done with your friends, and you go to field trips! All of those things that homeschooling lacks. In my study-life, I have to manage my time and try to understand things on my own, I do projects alone, and my social life is kinda - dead. Okay, so maybe I get to have a lot of free time, and don't have to socialize when I don't want to, and that I don't have to wake up super early to catch the bus. There may be a lot of advantages in homeschooling, but normal schooling is so much more fun and I miss it. I miss my classmates and teachers so much and I miss going to school!
Okay, my long rant is over. Your turn! What's something you miss?